hear my story.

2010-11-02T17:25:00.001+08:00

semuanya sama lah. dua kali lima.

2010-10-28T00:39:00.001+08:00

because things happened................
and people change.

i didnt want things to turn out this way either. but i have to admit, im still not over it. and i cant.

im sorry.

2010-10-21T00:42:00.003+08:00

Others opinion of me doesn't have to become my reality. True enough, i choose not to bother. I don't care what you think, what you say, or whether you hate me or not, i don't live to fucking please you.

2010-10-15T00:38:00.002+08:00

this picture, means a lot to me.

so does this.

2010-10-08T00:42:00.002+08:00

For the two consecutive weeks, I got my off and rest day on a Monday and Tuesday. How sucky does that feels. And in addition to that, Im working afternoon shift all the way. I dont know whether to be happy, sad or angry. But then again, attachment means probation period. If I cant do this now, what happens when I step out into the real working world. Cmon Syikin, bear with it, for another six months. On a random note, Im still unsure whether Im gonna stick to hotel line. Should I? Or not? Long hours. Cannot tahan lahhh.

Even how bad my shift appears to be, and I was contemplating on whether I should plan my week well or go on sulking about it. and of course, this smart girl (yg tk boleh masuk dblO because her birthday is coming in two months time, this is random by the way) choose to make the best out of it. On monday, which happens to be Faizal's off day, I dragged him to grandlink and we karaoke-d for four hours. Cheap cheap, good good mah. On tuesday, nothing much but just hang around town. And on wednesday, ladies night. But, faizal is sickkkk ): Why ah, why must it either be me or him who gets sick on wednesdays. It was a last minute trip to zirca, which he insisted on going (because he knows how bad i wanted to club eversince it dragged from after Raya, the start of my attachment till now). But we didnt stay for long, I cant bear to see him being there, despite being sick.

P.s: I have it all typed out. Now it's only you and me. Not your girls, not my girl, and not my boyfriend.

2010-10-07T03:03:00.001+08:00

you said, nothing changes.

2010-09-25T23:36:00.002+08:00

I am currently waiting for Faizal to come over and bring me to go supper. I had my last meal at 2pm just now. Tahan tk mkn sebab nk carik a reason to spend time with boyfriend. Perangai ini anak.

A message for Ira Sazalee: Am glad to bump into you at banquet the other day. I bet that was your first ban mian ever since fasting month. Hehe. Love you! <3

A message for Syila Malik: Fancy to bump into you at TTSH, yes, your workplace my dear. But, am glad i managed to hug you ever since the last time. Terubat rinduuu, (:

A message for Raudah Yusoff: Bila agaknya kita kan bertemu?

I'd better go get ready. I'll update, soon? Take care babies.

2010-09-18T01:18:00.001+08:00

time for a change.

2010-09-08T21:19:00.001+08:00

I know this is very very late. But at least I update. Yes ira hazirah <3? equiv="Content-Type" content="text/html; charset=utf-8">Im supposed to study by the way, but look at what im doing instead. Here, blogging.

The happenings during Ramadhan were hmm pretty not much. Besides working, I managed to find time to iftar with BabyG. I is very mean. I dragged her to go karaoke with me, despite knowing she’s not well. Alahhh, that time accident, muke mcm Princess Fiona pun tetap nk karaoke jugak apaaa, kan b? Hehehe.

Next, iftar with ex-secondary school mates. You girls might not know Abu. He was our class monitor back in secondary five. And he was the one who organised this year’s iftar. And guess what, besides picking on a weird Monday to iftar, he decided not to turn up, because of parents wedding anniversary. Aku tktau nk marah ke nk ketawe.

Then it was ayah’s operation on sixth of September. Yeah, I know initially I told you that he didn’t want to go for either surgery or chemotherapy. But after discussing with the doctor, he decides to go for the surgery. Alhamdulillah, after the surgery, he’s much better now.

Then, it was my last minute going geylang with boyfriend! Okay, I know im not excited for Raya because of ayah’s condition but I admit that I actually am because this is the first time im celebrating Raya with Faizal. We went to get our last minute Baju Raya and I got one for myself, while he got two. Pfft. I guess we’ll be going again on malam Raya, cause he’s yet to get his samping and im determined to get another one for myself. (((:

I hope to meet you girls before my attachment. Party on the 15th babies? I know it’s kinda early because it’s only the sixth day of Raya but that’s the only ladies night I have before I start my attachment on the 20^th.

And I hope, what happened previously doesnt have to happen again. BabyG, please tell your girls to behave. I just wanna have some fun, its not as if I go there religiously every Wednesday, unlike them. I don’t need them to spoil my night, like how they did, especially you-know-who. Fancy getting drunk, bringing up the past, making people hates me yet again, who’s being childish and not yet move on. Oh cmon, its fucking two months, not as if its two years, bitch.

2010-08-24T00:28:00.005+08:00

Some experiences are painful to remember because, as you look back on them, you see how you could have spoken or acted otherwise, or how you wish things would have turned out differently. The purpose of these memories is to instruct you, not torment you.

2010-08-10T16:20:00.001+08:00

Hello, girls.

The recent major blow that happened to me is about my Dad. Last Friday, Kak Norli texted me and told me abt Ayah’s condition. His is prostate cancer, stage 4. So here it goes. There’s nothing much you can do at stage 4 because it’s the final stage. For my dad, his minimum life span is six months and maximum of two years. Yes girls, if you realised, I’m losing my dad in this short period of time. The doctor gave him two options. 1. To go for surgery. 2. To undergo chemotherapy. At the age of 66, I’m not sure how he’ll be able to cope with the side effects for both options. In addition to that, he has a history of heart attack. I don’t want to see him suffer and go through pain. On Sunday, we had a family discussion which Ayah made his decision in front of us. He decided not to go for either option. I respect his decision but what saddens me is that by not going for either option, the cancer cells will spread faster. However, even if he were to go for them, the cancer cells have already spread to his bones. So, I have to leave it to the man up there and just got to be prepared for the worst.

Treasure your loved ones who have been there for you, who never give up on you. Especially your parents. Spend more time with them, okay. Fortunately for my dad, he knows how much time he has left. Unfortunately, it’s too early for him to go. The only daughter of Kassim Ahmad and Norhati Nordin have yet to graduate from school, earn a living to carry out her responsibility as a daughter and being able to repay their never ending hard work, hard ships that they had to go through and perseverance to bring me up. He have yet to see me get married, when he can finally step down from carrying such a big responsibility to take care of me ever since I was born and witness the birth of his grandchild.

I’m coping well girls, trying to get hold of everything, only thing that I cannot help but break down each time I think of Ayah and the condition he is in currently.

Tomorrow will be the start of Ramadhan. I believe my girls are grown-ups now. No more half-day or off day ahh, except for best friend period. Selamat menjalani ibadah puase. Seriously, you’ll find a greater meaning to it if you carry it out sincerely.

See you girls soon, imy.

2010-08-02T09:26:00.002+08:00

I tk update because

1. I malas

2. There’s nothing much to update about

3. I busy with work during the weekends

See? My reasons are getting better and better right? Haha. Ok nonsense.

So yeah. Weekends was spent at work. I need to work my ass off because my last pay I only get $200 thereabout. Pathetic much? Because last month I skipped work a number of times because of the MBS opening and attending family&friends functions. I am not lying, I am not joking, I fucking seriously need my $250 back. I cannot depend on faizal, right. Even if i can, but I choose not to.

We didn’t really celebrate our sixth because I was sick. Pfft. ):

2010-07-23T11:33:00.010+08:00

I was indecisive about partying on Wednesday as it was shida’s 23^rd because i have school the next morning and UT in the afternoon. But it only took two dearly of mine to lure me before i decided to go, despite still worrying about not being able to wake up on time for class, die2 not gonna skip class to discipline myself to achieve perfect attendance of zero lateness and zero absent for the semester.

Barely 3 hours of sleep and i survived. Thanks to the boy for being there, sending and picking me up from school, assure me that i’ll be alright until the minutes before UT. Every party session is no doubt, great. But that night, was the best so far after my nineteenth. I’ve got my babygirl and boyfriend with me. Like, finally.

2010-07-21T10:49:00.000+08:00

Dear Allah, thank you for everything. ♥

2010-07-13T11:28:00.003+08:00

"facts like; what we had, couldnt be compared to what you and i had. dayah, lily, syidah, they are my girls as well. but you, you are my bbg. and thats one big difference you have to remember if in future, you feel threatened again."

"i dont go to her when i had problems at home, with wan, with whatever problems i had. i dont go to her when my bbg stood by her boyfriend when he called me a bitch (da ckp sorry aper, hehe :D), i dont cry and whine to her. and i dont go to her when my bbg text me on my birthday."

-thank you bbg, you made my day. (:

2010-07-12T22:38:00.001+08:00

its not about whether im willing to try or not but baby, looking at how things are for you now, i dont wish to come back, and ruined everything.

2010-07-12T00:50:00.004+08:00

I don't know whether this sounds good or bad, but somehow, I feel things just won't be the same. Eventhough how bad i missed those times spent or sometimes I just wished it'd be like before.

On a lighter note, I'm glad I made it in time for my BBG's birthday, wished her although it came in late, meet up with my girls after so long. On top of it all, forgiveness, is all that I ask for.

Alright, I have an interview with Klapsons later on. Wish me luck sweethearts!

2010-07-08T13:11:00.005+08:00

This post goes out to you.

Months have passed. We might have move on with our own lives, our loved ones. Sadly but true, there’s no you or me to share those moments. Shits happens. And idk whether to stay or go. Because of what happened, i don’t talk to my bestfriend, i’ve made more enemies than friends, and your friends hates me for the fact that i come and go in your life.

And because what happened is partly due to my ego, lemme apologise to you. What happened made me open up my eyes. But maybe it took me some time to listen to my heart because EGO is blocking my way. In life i learnt, that in relationship, and in friendship, ego and ignorance wont bring me anywhere.

I remember the time when i celebrated my awesome nineteenth. You were there, the girls, ira and raudah were there too. What more could i ask for. The thought of you making an effort to be there and celebrating it with me wont go away. How can i possibly throw all that away?

To put it simply, i cant afford to lose you, and faizal. Cause you, have always been there. And he came in later, and showed me the meaning of love. Life would be much better if i could have you both. But the last thing that i don’t want to happen is, to become a complete stranger to you.

Don’t worry about my boyfriend. I’ve talked to him regarding this matter. He might need time to adjust, but he’ll be alright.

Happy belated 20^th, BBG.

(i know i looked ugly in this photo. but it means so much to me. cause i have you, and the girls with me, on my birthday.)

♥♥♥♥

2010-06-29T11:06:00.004+08:00

its been ages since i last logged in to this page. Im considering of shutting down this page. Hmm, should i? *sigh*

and so, im back to school. Im currently attending lectures today for three modules. After spending the whole week, (including Saturday and Sunday) at Marina Bay Sands. Definitely, there’s good and bad news. The bad news is im not being paid to work there. The good news is i don’t hafto be in sch. Haha.

After this week, i have six more weeks to spend in sch and i’ll be sent out for attachment. I’ve alr chosen my choices and i’ll just hafto wait for calls to go for interview. Hopefully i get into my choices yeah. *cross fingers*

ZARA will be having their sales soon, very soon. 1st – 4th of July. And i guess i wont be seeing the boy during these four days as he’ll be working almost 12 hours a day, he needs to have ample rest. So ladies, feel free to date me out. Hehe. But preferably on weekdays. I’ll be working on Saturday and Sunday i have to attend my niece cukur rambut.

On a brighter note, today marks our fifth monthsary. Happy fifth, dear. I love you,

always. ♥

2010-04-29T19:28:00.000+08:00

seriously girls, don't bother.

2010-04-14T15:23:00.007+08:00

sorry ladies for not been updating. for the fact that i've not been in contact with the lappy most of the time. cause either i'll be working and spending time with ♥. even if i wanna use fb, i'll just get connected using faizal's iphone. anyway, there's nothing much to update. im with faizal most of the time. because he said, he wanna spend time with me before school reopens for me. he'd rather be with me, hang out around town, watching movie instead of meeting his friends. but i told him, i dont mind him hanging out with his friends cause i dont want them to think that you know, what happened between us. err.. let's skip that part. but he did it of his own accord, same goes for me. im glad that his friends understand. even if they dont, at least they dont give him problems. it's quite clear cut cause it's either we're on the same shift, if not he'll be picking me up after work or i'll be fetching him if he's on the morning shift. our usuals will be to cineleisure to watch a movie unless we have other plans.

so the recent ones that we've watched is date night, rec 2, clash of the titans, how to train your dragon, and whip it. i would recommend you girls to watch date night please. it's very funny.

this was an impromptu plan on the first of april. my sister's friend booked a room at sentosa resort, the one right in front of cafe del mar and invited us to join them. i was in the morning shift while faizal was on full shift. while waiting for him to end work, the rest of us chilled at harry's @ harbourfront. we wenta drink at cafe del mar after putting our stuffs in the room and they went for a swim at the resort's swimming pool. seronok giler kay tengok dorang main air. i cannot cause tengah period. Zzz. although it was just for one night and unplanned, we enjoyed it because initially faizal and i thought of visiting sentosa but dont know when.

(we were sitting infront of cafe del mar when i took this. only to know aft nearly fifteen minutes of waiting, the tram service are not in service for that day. -_-)

this was last Saturday. Faizal was working full shift. I met him during his second break and patah balik in the night to fetch him from work. we wenta have supper and chilled at ben&jerrys.

(muke aku stop it kay. )

okay, im out to meet iraa and fetching ♥ afterwards. belom mandi lagi nie. tsk.

2010-03-31T11:44:00.002+08:00

hello my beautiful princesses.

yes,

1)i've privatised my blog.
2)i'm backing out.
3)life goes on.

this is going to be the last time you'll hear me rant about this. truth is, im affected by her actions. instead of saving our relationship, she's only making things worse. how much am i worth in her eyes. i dont know. remember few months back? on my birthday? outside zirca? how excited i was to see her that i cried? i dont know if those tears are worth it. i've tolerated with her for the longest time. and i guess she too, must have felt the same way. truth is, we humans, never fail to make mistakes. is it wrong that i spend more time with my boyfriend? maybe she's not used to it cause i nv fail to be there for her the last time. and last time, she got asy. now the table have turn. if others can understand, why not her. in fact, she should be happy for me. since she "chooses" someone who label me as a bitch and everything else, im backing out. goodbye.

and so, i decided to move on. i hope to be able to update my blog regularly from now on. jgn jelak pulak eh. hehehe. best tau ade private blog. it's only between the three of us. oh, sekarang jer ive got things to tell you. you know that amalina? hazril's gf. they broke up, and patched. my friend, who is in np and in their malay cultural group also, told me they broke up because.. hazril pergi hotel dgn ppn lain. oooh, bitchy kan. so raudah, its not your lost. budak dk nie sume.. mmg mcm SIAL. amalina also ever got jealous over me. over a small matter. just because my friend asked her whether she knows me or not. and on hazril's birthday, i went to the zoo. i was with faizal when i saw them both. hazril looked at me but i just stared and looked away. i also heard hazril is the kind yg mintak amalina duit and si amalina bodoh nie pulak gave him. asl budak2 andika perangai mcm tu eh? heran ahh.

currently, im at home. tk pergi tarian cause m-a-l-a-s. need i explain more? hehe. will be fetching faizal later. in the meantime, tktau nk buatpe. nk pergi karaoke. tapi tkn srg2. da tkd duit nie. mlm nie baru gaji masok. b-o-r-i-n-g.

2010-03-24T00:29:00.001+08:00

truth is, i miss you.
truth is, what you did really disappoint me.

i wont say anymore.
disappointment explains it all.

2010-03-16T17:59:00.000+08:00

Where should I start?

Life has been pretty good.. Thanks to the man up there. Because of faith, I have Baker with me. I am not hoping nor am I moving too fast, but I leave it to Him. Maybe, just maybe, you might wanna know how he’s been treating me. He takes good care of me, always trying his best to make everyday beautiful, worth and complete. I am not boasting that is why I prefer not to write every detail about us here but I am proud, to have him.

And maybe, I’m thinking too much about this whole shit. Pardon me, but I wish all of you, my party people, all the best, enjoy life and be happy. Of course I miss you guys and those late night parties, those bitching, those drinking sessions, and never ending camwhoring (thanks to Syila and Ira digicam). Party people, you guys will be fine without me. Last thing to note, I treasured those moments and you people will always be in my heart. <3

BabyG, (I don’t think I still own that title but anyway), this is for you. Here’s what happen to us (I think). I think I owe you a lot of explanations why I didn’t turn up for pit, party and chalet. Truth is, Baker never help me decide whether to go or not when it concerns you or the party people. Truth is, it was never about him. I didn’t turn up for pit because like I told you beforehand, I was visiting my brother. And fetching Baker from work. So, in between, I thought I could spare spend time and come down for the pit. But I was really squeezing for time. But did you even text or call me? No. So I assumed, you don’t bother. I didn’t turn up for party because I had to work 8am shift on the next day and because I already decided, this may depend on individual but to me, club can wait. What matters most is to get Baker’s trust, which I think I haven’t done enough. Even if this relationship works out or not, I’m putting my heart and soul into it. Truth is, I was never happy to see you and Dayah hitting off so well. Yes, I know you know her way before all this shit happens. But I don’t understand why you have to comment on her fb, get involve in conversations which you don’t have to be involve as if she’s your babyG, even after we talked about it. Worse, none was made to mine. Look, I never intend to bring this up because I know, I have no say who should you talk to or not. Right from the beginning of our friendship, i never stop you, dear. I never did. I was a little disappointed but if it makes you happy, I have nothing to say. If you wish to know about why I hate Dayah so much. It was not because she used to date Adam or Faizal. It was not because of jealousy. It was not about revenge. But we all know her character well. She would date guys, dumped them and talked behind their back. I don’t want the same thing to happen to Faizal. And Adam, I wasn’t with Adam when they dated, but Adam was still using me, my money. I don’t blame her about Adam’s case. Cause I don’t even care, now. Only God knows what Adam told her about me. The whole thing about this girl is, she don’t deserve Faizal, that’s it.

And why was it Ira and not you who text me to come out and party, Raudah and not you who text me to come down for chalet? I never turn up for chalet because I felt, why I should when my presence is not appreciated by my own BabyG. Like I’ve said, maybe I’m thinking too much, so pardon me. But I’m just telling you how I feel all this time. The awkward feelings and such, which should never exist. But why this happens. Because your actions freak me out that sometimes, I feel it’s better for me to remain silent. Well you know, that’s me. I don’t want to let something minor to become a big hooha. And I know you will be fine. You have a whole lot of them with you, the party people, the reunion gang, I won’t be much of a bother to you.

I’ve said whatever that is needed. Whatever happens tomorrow, we’ll take it from here. I leave it to the man up there.

2010-02-14T14:33:00.000+08:00

I’ve been neglecting sweetscenes for some time and I think it needs a proper update, right dearies?

I can finally heave a huge sigh of relief and breathe once again. With ut’s over, I can finally declare; holidays. I think I should learn how to pamper myself more. Instead of burning my holidays for tarian and work.

Everything around me seems to be fine now. Baker has been treating me well that I think I’ve gain weight, especially on my cheeks. Happy ker syikinn...? Haha. I think so.

Proper update doesn’t have to be a long, wordy one, does it? A lil’ bit of what’s been happening seems enough, for me.

Dear S, don’t cry cause it’s over, smile cause it happen. I love you, you know?

Looking forward to l8r. Valentine’s day on valentine’s day. (((:

2010-02-01T10:16:00.002+08:00

fuck everything else.
i wanna concentrate on ut.

2010-01-25T10:03:00.004+08:00

I think its time for me to update blog.

Firstlyyyyyyyy. Party with my favourite girls and boys couldn’t have been better. Its been a long time since we party together, but syila’s boys disappoint her. What more, the management at zirca/rebel/lunar didn’t let the boys in. Sedih kannn. But it’s okay, we enjoyed ourselves at sc. Babies, (especially iraa), lain kali kita tkmo bawak dorang pergi sana okay. We go ladies night. (((((:

I love my people.

Nexttttttttt. I’m not a movie go-er the last time. But for two consecutive weeks, i’ve watched Avatar, New York I Love You, Tooth Fairy and Law Abiding Citizen. So, people, kalau nk movie review, come, ask me. hehe. Two thumbs up for Avatar, Law Abiding Citizen, tooth fairy. New York i love you wasn’t that great, but i wanna watch it badly. Next movie that i want to watch, valentine’s day. I hope it won’t disappoint me like how New York i love you did.

Thanks baker for the supper, dinner, movie date and seeing me home. Looking forward for more dates with you. When i thought i was losing faith, you make me feel better and put that faith back on me. When the going gets tough, i/you know i/you have you/me around. ((((:

2010-01-15T09:20:00.002+08:00

i dont know what i got myself into, after putting up all with those cries and sarcasms. but, faith, keeps me going.

dear girlfriends and boyfriends,

sorry if i dissappoint you.

2010-01-13T09:46:00.011+08:00

a date with babyG♥.

i skipped school on tuesday because.. you'll prefer not to know why. jawapan aku tk munasabah. woke up at one, text-ed syilaa and not long, i crushed her crib at three. she straightened my hair and i had time to play with shaheed since we got time to kill until five. then she, together with asyraf accompanied me to meet shaikh to settle some things. (:

we had late lunch, early dinner at banquet. chilled at civic. when asyraf left at seven, we girls didnt have any plans. cashstudio sounded too far for us. what more grandlink. zzz. and so, we decided to check out partyworld. people, please erased partyworld is expensive and they only have a limited list of malay songs from your mind. it is not. we stayed for four hours for only $47. on top of that, we were served with a plate of fruit, two bowls of kerepek, 2 wet towels, and two drinks. puas hati di partyworld dokk.

b, we managed to sing hey ladies this time. and another, aku, dia dan kamu. LOL! by the way, good luck for your new job aye. meet me soon, before friday. love you! and yes, i never fail to thank you for being there (dont get sick of it cause you'll hear more of it), and spending time just to make sure that i'll be alriight. <333333

2010-01-11T15:10:00.003+08:00

2010 started out preety well. but not for long. it went well when he decided to go against it. dont ask me, idk either.

i dont think i cant cope with school, dance and work preety much longer. having ut l8r, agm after.

and on friday night,
SC with the girls. ♥♥

you dont look like you? agree? haha -syilaa

idk what i'd do without them.

2010-01-07T23:16:00.003+08:00

i took this quiz; What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Your Heart Takes Love Seriously
You are attracted to obedience and warmth. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

good night girls. imy and ily. and fyi, am still feeling down. :(

2010-01-02T23:25:00.003+08:00

Even though 2009 wasn’t a good year, it ended pretty well, beyond my expectations.

Anyways, i’ll keep this short and simple.

I had an advance New Year countdown cum ladies night over at ph with my not-single ladies. Huahua. Even so, it was G-R-E-A-T. I enjoyed myself by staying at the podium all night long. But the crowd sucks.

And the best part is, i had to work at 9am the following day. Since it was the second day of sales, i did not dare to change shift or tell them i’ll come by later. I was trying so hard to keep my eyes open on the selling floor up till 8pm and i’m glad i managed to. Mcm gni next time boleh party lagi uh. Hehehe.

Welcome 2010, happy new year gfs! Muah muah muah!

2009-12-28T01:47:00.002+08:00

Had another sister’s outing with kakak. The plan was to actually find our belated birthday presents that we owed each other. Hers was like months ago. Haha. But eyy, we can’t seemed to concentrate the moment we stepped into town. Masok isetan jer,

Kakak: “Dik, da pergi mango nyer sale?”
Aku: “Belum ah.”
Kakak: “Da lamer tk pergi mango. Jom.”

That was only the starting. Then we went to have a drink at shaw house mc cafe before proceeding on to our window shopping. Went to check out the price for a loewe clutch which cost 400 plus plus. Went to coach, there are a few which caught our eye but the price didn’t catch our eyes. Hahaha.

We then took bus because this sister of mine has wild thoughts of going clubbing on a Sunday. Precisely, expression priceless (-_-). I already told her, Sunday = no crowd = boring. And we don’t even know whether they’re opened. The worst part is, semua tutup. I already expected the worst but kesian kakak aku. Hahaha. From Clarke quay, to boat quay to chijmes and finally she changed her mind to sheesha instead. Chilled at al-majlis until eleven and bus-ed home. Why bus? Cause i feel like emo-ing. Hahaha. Tkla! Cause i took concession what and mana tau dlm bus ade lelaki handsome ker? Oh tk ehh? :D

2009-12-20T23:57:00.008+08:00

This was on Friday. An impromptu plan to zirca/rebel first anniversary with kakak. Was contemplating on whether should we go nova or elsewhere since rp is holding an event at nova but nah, we decided to settle down at zirca/rebel instead. Anyway, promise kakak to bring her to rebel and, there you go. (:

no mattter what happens,

i'll be there.

i love you,

kakak. ♥♥

2009-12-18T00:56:00.002+08:00

Party-ing for the past three weeks make me realise something. That there’s more to life other than brooding over the past that is definitely not worth it. Boys (who never fails to disappoint me) and party-ing all night assured me why I don’t need a man. Just like the song goes; “I will survive” eventually. 2010’s coming and I guess next week will be the last time that I’m gonna party for 2009. But at ph this time round. For now, I gotta agree with you bbg, I’m contented with what I have, now. My girls, the boys; great party people. They don’t ruin me, instead they take care of me. What else could I ask for?

It may sound as if I’m addicted to club. But I hope not. May this be just a temporary getaway from all that has been happening. No doubt when party’s over, the problem is still there, with no solutions. But if this makes me happy, why not. I am just enjoying my life while I still can.

This is meant for raudaaah. B, i know last night sucked for you. But fuck that aside. It ain’t worth it. You got us, remember? We’ll be here for you. Have a safe trip. We’ll be waiting for your return!

On a random thought, it’s kinda funny now that we went party together.

2009-12-11T12:34:00.006+08:00

My birthday was a blast.

I was half-hearted to go when raudaaah told me that she cannot make it for the night. And was pissed because rehearsal ended so late. Bodoh, suruh org report by 4.30 but the whole thing starts at 8.30. Nbcb. We didn’t stay till the end and went off after our item, which apparently was the last therefore it didn’t make much difference. Rushed to mrt to meet ayu, kesian dia kene tunggu for an hour or so. Trained down to cq. Why we didn't cab down? Cause we'd rather spend the money on drinks than cab fare, kan iraa? Heh.

Suddenly, while queuing at zirca, raudaaah and syilaa appeared out of nowhere. I was speechless. All i could do was hugged them. Here comes the touching part. I cried when i hugged syilaa. Idk because i was too excited or i missed her so much. They gave me my presents. I got my watch which i told syilaa about (thanks babyg!), a soft toy and a card. And again i cried after reading the card. B! You made me cry a lot ehh! Lol.

Enough about that, it’s party time! Ayu, iraa and i went out to buy drinks. Bought Smirnoff and settled down somewhere. We went back in at 1.30 am and couldn’t find raudaaah and syilaa. We didn’t have our phones with us and iraa suggested to call raudaaah. We met at the locker area and raudaaah told me syilaa left. I was sad to hear that but its okay b, we can party some other time tgt! Hehe. We just started from where we left, remember? More to comeeee, ((((((:

The night was awesomeee. It felt complete cause i have my girls with me although syilaa had to leave early. Even though the surprise was for me and to celebrate my 19th, i hope you girls have fun too. I will be looking forward to more party sessions with you girls. Idk how many times i’ve said this but i’m gonna say it again, TY GIRLS AND ILYYY.

Dear babyg, ty for everything. I know despite whatever shits that has happened, i still turn to you. Idk why no matter how hard i tried to stay away from you, be it months or years, i can’t. I just cannot bring myself to hate you. It’s easy to forgive, but hard to forget, kan? That’s why i chose to stay away from you (at that point of time.) i hope the shits that we went through, the time-off, made us a better person and understand each other better. You know i love you b. ♥♥

2009-12-09T01:57:00.004+08:00

Blow the candles baby, cause it’s your birthday. Happy Nineteenth Nurul Asyikin! You’re a big girl now.

So ya, as midnight strikes, I turned a year older (not exactly, I was born at 20 17 hours. Heh). So many things happen throughout; be it good or bad. But it definitely made me stronger, and wiser in making decisions, choosing paths in life and bearing the consequences.

I still remember how I celebrated my birthday a year ago. Cheesy cupcakes which said; HAPPY 18TH SYIKIN. Thanks to her, I will not forget 09/12/08. Those sweet moments that you left me were unforgettable. I used to have a best friend, we were close, very close. Too close to the extent of lying for the sake of not wanting to hurt the other party's feelings and sacrificing the friendship for other’s happiness when we know deep down we love and will definitely miss each other.

Last Friday was Zirca with raudaaah and friends. It was FUN, kan kan kan? Cause at least, I managed to forget you for a while. Anw, managed to sleep for barely two hours. Then off to work, till closing.

I managed to gain what i’ve lost. Part I and II. (((:

Dear S, idk why, but you’ve changed, for the better. I can see you trying to make an effort, and after all these while, after I tried to stay away from you, after what have happened between us (you know, i know), you are still here, patiently waiting for my return. And no amount of words can describe how thankful and grateful I am to you. My love for you never changes. I have always loved you, and always will.

From, your favourite girl. ♥♥

So yesterday, cabot halfway, cause I hate John Chan’s class. Had lunch at mcd with d’yraa. Dragged ourselves back to school to attend ISF rehearsal. Later at night, Hasiff told me to meet him at subway and brought me all the way to admiralty park until we reached the international sakura and all I did was whined and pester him to tell me where we are heading to. We ended up at lawn, which was when I saw Shida, Naresh and Niaz. Touching kann! They came to celebrate my birthday in advance. Aww, so sweeeeet.

Ty guys for everything.

2009-11-30T11:11:00.006+08:00

Finally, I’m updating. I took a break over the weekend to spend some time to myself. My Saturdays have always been at work, doing closing. Somewhat considered an impromptu plan, volunteered to be Hasiff’s model and dragged him to railway, Faber point via forest trail (the boy wanted to explore but we lost our way) and Keppel bay.

(photo of the day)

(during the forest trail.)

(so ini dia faber point?)

More on fb, ty.

Life has been a bitch recently but yaa.. I’m coping well with it. Tomorrow marks the first day of the last month of the year; DECEMBER!; my birthday coming in two weeks time. I’m very much excited. Idk why but anyway, Wooohoo!

2009-11-18T11:38:00.002+08:00

happy eighteenth birthday sweetheart.
eventhough we're miles apart and it's so hard to meet nowadays,
you know i'll be there when you need me.
im happy to see that life is getting better on your side?
tell me about it.
meet up soon.
i love you babe.

2009-11-13T11:42:00.010+08:00

Muse II was a success. Thank you everyone for the countless efforts and teamwork. From taking care of props, sacrificing your saturdays to attend trainings, and for all those tears and laughters, including scoldings from Cikgu. But i believe it's for our own good and we all have learnt something from this production.

2012 was great too. (:

looking forward to FLAMES. no, actually the after party.

2009-10-30T10:24:00.006+08:00

DblO was fun. The crowd was great. Hit the club with kakak lastnight. I rushed home from school to change and trained down to CQ. It was eleven by then. Met kakak, since it has been quite some time we hang out. And also to celebrate her birthday. Whose next? Lol. No pictures taken when I actually brought the camera along. I left it in my bag and went in empty-handed. I cannot get off the dancefloor once the songs and crowd starts to come in. We simply dance our asses off through the night.

I hope last night wasn't the last. I hope we could still hang out like before. With regards to the current situation, idk. But i hope it'll get better or everyone can adapt to it atleast.

And also, happy __th birthday kakak! I hope you'll make wise decisions in life. Although I may not be there and I dont really know what's happening, please don't go. I still need you.

♥,

your one & only,

little sister.

2009-10-04T23:29:00.009+08:00

school starts tmr. a brand new semester. i hope i'll do better this sem. many things happen lately. both good and bad ones. too many which idk where to start. well, for the bad ones, let bygones be bygones. i shall forget about the past and lead a new life, with those who appreciates. with shows coming up, i shall not let anything affect me. i believe there's more to life and i should be thankful for having wonderful people who have been there during my down moments. and i shouldn't let them down. and for the good ones.. keep it comin'.

to you, i've always been there. maybe you dont realise and never appreciates. that's why.. you take me for granted.

some random pics from some outings.

ahh.. ini latest. woodlanders berhari raya on the 3rd of october. they all gather at my place. janji pukul 11. members dtg pukul 12. ayah kata janji melayu. more on fb, ty.

favourite shots,

2009-08-17T12:13:00.002+08:00

At th end of th day, i give up.
I always fall but never learn my lesson.
Eventually i tripped on it all these years.
I am tired.

Believe me when i say i always fall,
Believe me when i say i am tired after all these years.

Some say, despite falling out of love for umpteen times,
I shouldn’t say no to love.
But i am tired.
Tired of getting hurt,
Tired of crying,
Tired of fighting
For someone not worth,
For something which i don’t deserve to have.
love.

At th end of th day,
I know i still have my family and friends.
To be specific, my darlings gfs and boyfriends. (you guys know who you are)
Who never fails to be there, rain or shine.
They are the ones who pick me up when i fall.

What matters most to me now is to enjoy my single days while i still can.
Tell me again why i need a man.
Precisely, i don’t.

Dear S,
I don’t care what your decision might be,
Cause i’ve made up mine.
We’ll still be friends though. No worries. (:

2009-08-11T12:23:00.003+08:00

Hello.

Ive been keeping myself away from sweetscenes.bs for some time and i think its time to have a proper and daily (i hope) update. Heh.

Life has been sucky these days. Things hasn’t been going on smoothly like how i thought it would or should hv been. Ahh, i don’t wanna talk about it.

I missed work during the weekends. Very dramatic know. I black-out at ion, otw to work on Saturday. I didn’t know what to do, i had to squat and lean against the wall before i can finally visualise. Afraid that i might just knock out, i called Zara. I was asked to go home.

On national day, followed the family to watch fireworks even though i badly wanted to stay at home, and sleep. And it was the first time that ayah tagged along. If not, he’d be busy working. At the end of the day, nothing can replace the family love or bond. Cause i know at the end of the day, they are the ones who are readily there, at the end of the long stretch of road, waiting for me with arms wide open. And i must thank kakak, for being there most of the time, dealing with my whines every now and then and understanding me. Oh and anw, nice hair eh kak. *kening naik2*

What i wanna do now is to concentrate on ut3 and i can get ready and prepare myself for hari raya. Ceyy, mcm paham. Also, trying to gain back what i’ve lost along the way, boy-friends. Met a couple of them recently. Ty, for listening and sharing your thoughts.

I think what i need is a break and ample rest from everything.

2009-08-05T22:52:00.002+08:00

mind made up.
i dont want to have anything to do with any of you.
cause even as friends, things can be as complicated as this.
thanks asyraf, for everything.
and syila, you can have him back.
to the others, i dont need your sympathy.
instead, leave me alone.

2009-08-03T10:37:00.002+08:00

All this time I was wasting
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down

And it's taking me this long
Baby but I figured you out
And you're thinking we'll be fine again
But not this time around

You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore

And you can say that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no, no, no, no

Looking so innocent
I might believe you if I didn't know
Could've loved you all my life
If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold

And you got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
Cause it's worked each time before

But you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore

And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no, no, oh
You're not sorry, no, no, oh

You had me falling for you honey
And it never would've gone away, no
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade

So you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There's nothing left to beg for

2009-07-22T15:28:00.002+08:00

ON HIATUS.

2009-07-20T15:28:00.003+08:00

You filled my days with rainbow lights,
Fairytales and 'sweet dream' nights,
A kiss to wipe away my tears,
Comforting words to ease my fears.
You gave the gift of life to me
And then in love, you set me free.
I thank you for your tender care,
For deep warm hugs and,
........just for being there.
I hope that when
You think of me
A part of you
You'll always see....

Happy birthday mama, ily.

2009-07-18T17:43:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday gf! I know this is kinda overdue but i still make it on time through the phone didn’t i?:))

I hope you like the kinda surprise but not so surprise and the pretty much nothing but something, IS my gift for you.

You were there when i needed someone to talk to. You were there for a shoulder to cry on. You were there when i needed a hug. In fact, you were there each time when i need you. THANK YOU, DEAREST. And i love you.

The day is not yet done. See you tonight.;)

With love,
syikin

2009-07-15T09:57:00.002+08:00

i have nothing to say to you, nothing.

up. to. you.

i. dont. care.

2009-07-07T09:38:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday princess.♥

2009-07-06T10:12:00.007+08:00

Dear Syilaa,

You have nothing to worry about okay. How can i possibly fall for A? He’s yours, and will always be yours. Even if i were to fall for him by chance, i know you need him more than i do, and no one can love him as much as you can. He was merely being there when no one else was around, when no one could understand the situation that i was in, and i have yet to thank him for that.

But then again, if i were your best friend, you should know better whether im gonna take him as my boyfriend. Oh cmon, there are many fishes in the ocean. I tried to be there, i tried to reach out to you, i request for a meetup, but you turned me down. I want you to know despite what happens, i still love you, and i still miss you. It's not worth losing a seven years friendship over a guy, dont you think so?

Thank you, A. You are my bff and will always be. :)

2009-07-03T09:14:00.002+08:00

i purchased a $6 thermometer just to get into school today. -_-

2009-07-02T10:33:00.004+08:00

This was from yesterday’s impromptu meet up with this baby. Iraa, don’t blame me ehk cause you didn’t attend to my call and sms. Lol. Anyways, it seems that i have a lot, a lot of things to update her about. I was having this sudden craving for doughnuts and being a very supportive gf, she accompanied me to get the doughnuts and we chilled at macdonald’s.

Okay, this is our silly moments. Scroll down and you’ll see that we’re actually pretty girls, yes baby? Self-proclaim, self-proclaim. Tsk.

See? I told ya.

Dear raudaaah, ty for listening. Ty for the hug (I really need one). Ty for being there. I appreciated it, alot. ILY, okay. Kalau i rindu you, i tgk video kite ehk.

When i thought i was okay, at the end of the day, i still tear on my pillow.

2009-07-01T10:59:00.001+08:00

i hate something called situation.
im beginning to understand the word, sacrifice.
enough said, you'll be fine.

2009-06-30T11:40:00.005+08:00

I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
Cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truely
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed
Cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I shoulda never let you hold me baby
Maybe why i'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Gotta figure out how you stole my heart

How did I get here with you, i'll never know
I never meant to let it get so, personal
After all I tried to do, stay away from loving you
I'm broken hearted, I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry

It feels good to finally let go.

2009-06-29T10:01:00.012+08:00

why is it so hard to let go of you?
is it just me or because you keeps coming back.
i was ready to let go when i thought i could live without you.
and letting go doesnt mean i already have someone else.
i wanna let go because im tired of everything, EVERYTHING.

to gfs, iraa and raudaaah, ty for being there.

2009-06-17T14:00:00.001+08:00

the ironic part is when you miss someone, but you cannot meet them. ouch, that hurts.

How did I get here with you? I'll never know
I never meant to let it get so personal
And after all I tried to do, stay away from lovin' you
I'm broken hearted, I can't let you know
And I won't let it show, you won't see me cry

2009-06-16T09:30:00.001+08:00

sometimes it is too much for me to handle.

i need a hug.

2009-06-15T11:23:00.001+08:00

The greatest pain that comes from love is loving someone you can never have.

2009-06-15T09:49:00.003+08:00

school starts today.

my two weeks holidays were not like holiday. i was out everyday. either to work or school for dance practice.

can i have one more day please? fat hope. unless self-declare. which i cant afford to. my grade sucks.

and now im looking at my next holiday. which is in august. end of august. faster come ok?

2009-06-04T23:54:00.003+08:00

my days were well spent eversince momentum. although it has been tiring, it was worth it.

on tuesday had dance practice with the year ones. we are currently preparing for competitions in july. shall not say much since we are still in our early stage of the preparation. idk why nowadays i eat alot but nothing comes out. get what i mean? nvm. so on tuesday, after dance, text adam and forced him to bring me to eat murtabak. haha. but im still not satisfied. cause the murtabak is not nice! at all. the boy then insists that we watch night at the museum 2.

today, day out with the girls. after dance, iraa, raudaaah, nyna and i planned to spend some time with each other since we didnt have any plans.but beofre proceeding anywhere, we went to banquet to fill in our stomachs. this is very serious. a matter of life and death ok. true whatt. tk mkn boleh mati tao. direct translation, never eat can die. agree? heh. initial plan was to hve a long bus ride and proceed to vivo. but, as soon as we set our foot at harbourfront interchange, we decided to drop by sentosa instead. it has been a long time for me, her, them and us. it feels great to soak our feet in the sand and enjoy the sea breeze. we camwhored, even at the foam pool which was meant for twelve years old and under. dropped by ben and jerry's and proceed to keppel bay. thanks raudaaah for bringing us there. it is a nice place, indeed. i love it.

MOMENTUM '09

girls (skirt) day out

we sure have great lotsa fun.

2009-05-27T10:41:00.002+08:00

it has been a long time since i had a proper update hasnt it? well, here goes. but sorry, no pictures.

i ditched work on saturday to attend a talk in geylang with dr fatimah lateef. its about aspirasi belia melayu singapura or something. i never really favour attending talks but its more of like kesiankan-iraa-punye-pasal punye mindset.

it ended ard 12 noon and iraa and i have no plans. so we decided to headed down to bugis and began to search for some tops which can be considered as formal for me and surveyed some bags for the girl. we walked for only two hours and cannot tahan already. took 960 and slept in the bus all the way to woodlands. while she meet irfan, i went home.

on sunday i went to work in the morning and met adam afterwards.

on monday was school, no dance. i happy happy went home and forgot all about decorating the basket. iraa called and as usual, the kanchiong and guilty me, i went back to school.

on tuesday, which was yesterday, had blocking and one hour of training.

today, no dance. no plans yet aft school.

dont cry because its over,

laugh because it happened.

2009-05-18T10:18:00.005+08:00

syilaa malik, i put up that post on early friday ehk. i jmp you on friday night. and it was an improptu one.

ok, since the girl demands me to put up a post, haha, tkluh! i met syilaa after we did blocking for momentum on friday. but before gg over to her crib, raudaaah and i accompanied iraa to meet irfan and we got free drinks. irfan offered me but i turned down. malu luh. next time kay. haha.

met syilaa. we talked. we shared stories. we exchanged comments. but at the end of the day, its up to you to decide kay love? shall not talked much about it here.

weekends were spent at work. and i was late again on saturday. confident set alrm clock as early as 6am, then changed to 5.30am so that i can take my own sweet time to get ready. but, i woke up at 7am. so instead of coming in at 8, i reached half hr later.-_-

my sunday was better when iraa decided to pay me a visit at work. but i was late shift on that day. so that's the down part. during my break, i joined her to watch wicked aura performed in front of esprit, just next door to my workplace.

will be meeting dearest syilaa again, tonight after dance practice though. today is the little brother's birthday,

happy third birthday shaheed solihin!!!! kakak love you!! muah muah! sorry, no present. psl your dearest sister just told me last evening. besides, im broke. hehe.

2009-05-15T09:15:00.018+08:00

i somehow love fridays. i love the three hours chat with you lastnight my dear. you know deep down i still care dont you? mama made me a cup of coffee before i leave for school. thank you mama. i love you.

2009-05-11T09:30:00.003+08:00

you said you want the old syikin.

i said i miss the old syikin too.

2009-05-07T14:40:00.005+08:00

ite simei lunchtime show

13 april 2009

getting ready...

candid!

THE END

2009-05-06T09:52:00.002+08:00

yest was tarian with the momentum peeps. it was fun because we get to see the hip hop audition for boys. hehe. know why. cause there was a little misunderstanding that both igs booked the same room. ira and i was practically laughing our asses off looking at how some of them dance. but some are really good. as in really. confirm plus chop can become a part of the style groovaz crew. they auditioned for like an hour or so before we start to have our practice. but before that, ira and i managed to do some of the hiphop steps. HAHA. and it was so damn funny i tell you. k, stop, dont even think of imagining me, nurul asyikin kassim doing hiphop moves!

okay, im done. im currently in class, waiting for class to start. today is HTM module. hospitality and tourism management module. and today, we're suppose to debate. idk how im gg to survive.

this was taken way back, during the holidays practice. ily ira. hehe. sweet kan i. i tau. bluek!

2009-05-04T09:30:00.005+08:00

im updating iraa.:p

on labour day, cik ana suggested that we visit jb. i didnt want to initially but i still go. so, mama and kakak brought the kids to poly to get their swine flu vaccination while i got ready. and, im late. well, cause i thought the vaccination will take some time mah. so i ended up siap anyhow and went out together with cik ana and her daughter. plan A was to take 950 from marsiling mrt. but, the bus didnt even stop due to the crowd. plan B, actually there was no plan B. it was unplanned. we decided to take 856 to checkpoint and walked in.

reaached malaysia custom, aku jakun nk mampos. kan da baru. haha. we walked to the taxi stand and the taxi driver was actually my mum's something, something. i also dont know. first destination was jakel. i tell you, that was the first and the last. ramai giler eh org. i ended up not buying anything while mom and sis bought their kain songket. i didnt buy cause hmm tkd colour yg i nk. hehe.

next was to angsana. search high and low for my A&W. by then all of us were already starving. so we ended up at Merrybrown instead. i was surprised that threading cost as cheap as RM7. convert to singapore baru brape. but i didnt go in. know why. the rest walked ahead already.:(

last destination was city square. shopping sakan family aku. they each atleast have something to bring home. me, nothing. haha. maybe next time.

weekends were spent at work. i misss my colleagues soo much. by sunday night i was superr tired. all i want was my bed. and now, today, back to school. and tonight got preview for momentum at 7pm.

this may be a short one. eventhough im in school, i got no time to do anything else besides doing research and readings. but no worries, i'll be back.:D

2009-04-30T14:14:00.000+08:00

"The best part of falling in love is having that someone loving you back just as much."

2009-04-27T16:24:00.005+08:00

i suddenly feel like having this.

2009-04-20T16:34:00.002+08:00

look at this. me and my slenge bacin face. this was taken on the 15th of April ( Asrap! birthday kau! hehe). a movie date with Adam. hmm. school starts today. i am so not ready cause i was working for the past three days. currently am in class. enduring till the facilitator says, "Thank you."

one thing to note. i dont want things to change.

2009-04-04T00:08:00.003+08:00

hello.

first and foremost,

(1)i've unprivatised my blog.

(2)i've removed my tagboard. i dont think its necessary. anw, you know how to get me. especially my girls, IMYSM.

(3)it's over. and i dont want to talk about it.

and so, i've been keeping myself busy nowadays. apart from work ofcourse. before gg to work on monday, i met asyraf. just to keep ourselves updated what has been gg on with our lives. on tuesday, was looking forward to watch The Unborn with the ZARA peeps but it was called off due to some last minute arrangements. nevertheless, met sadiq and went for supper. the plan for the following day was to watch a movie. aku nk sangat tgk Coming Soon, cause ramai kate cerita die seram giler. and so, we watched. but, it was sucha letdown kan diq? it was not scary at all. i didnt even shout throughout. oh tak ehh? hehe. kay kay.

afterwhich we went to eat. cause the boy havent eat eversince the night before that we went for supper. he didnt even finished it. pfft. had lunch cum dinner over at ljs. soon after he brought me to henderson wave. only god knows how long i've been wanting to go there. hahaha. ty, diq.:D

on thursday was only work. just when i thought i could have a good rest on my off day, i had to come down for meeting. chet! bumped into liza, my asst manager at orchard mrt. guess whatt.

liza:eh? how come you're here?

kinn:oh tkya ehh? maria suruh dtg.

liza:you got no sch today?

kinn:err, nope.*senyum plastic*

i was like siak uh. tao ckp aku ade tarian. tkya bgn pagi2 bute on my offday just to go for M-E-E-T-I-N-G.-_-

trained home with shida. because we were both super sleepy. got seats at novena and i dozed off straightaway, until woodlands. accompanied her to mcd and we went our separate ways. she had to worked later in the afternoon. i took 903 to meet mum. pergi pasar.-_-

in the evening met shida, hasiff, azuin. sadiq and naresh joined us later. they were planning to go for a gathering on the 8th. hopefully i can make it. which i dont think so. hmm. nvm. we still can go out some other days. and ofcourse, i'll text you ppl when im off okay. siff, practise your photography skills so that you can take more of my best moments. HAHA.

one of his best shots.

2009-03-28T00:12:00.004+08:00

nary birthday budak nie. lemme introduce you to sadiq. classmates eversince sec 1. and got separated during sec 5 due to our maths results i think. anw,

its his birthday today.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SADIQ RAMLI!

2009-03-27T01:25:00.003+08:00

BUSY! BUSY! BUSY!

TIRED! TIRED! TIRED!

really man.. i mean girls.. im sick and tired of how life is nowadays. for the past two weeks, ive been busy with school, dance, attended personal development workshop and trip to ISD organised by cikgu surya, one of the mcg advisor. can you imagine the fact that i even had to wake up as early as any other days to go to school? yes! how boring. well, the dancers were busy preparing our item for ite simei on 13 april. on a lighter note, i love the fact that ive been up and about doing things rather than doing nothing. get what i mean?

had a preview earlier on which lasted from two to four in the afternoon. before which we had our usual practice from ten to one. not really ten cause i met kak ain and marina at the interchange at ten-ish. haha! aku punye luh susah nk bangun pagi. penat luh.. serious. krg imagine luh, pagi tarian, lepastu masuk kje kul empat sampai mlm. then the next day, repeat the routine again. poor iraa, kene jadi my personl alarm clock. thanks babe! :D

so, after the preview, iraa and i went to watch a movie. it was impromptu though. it has been a long time since i went to catch one anw. wanted to watch coming soon but the next available show is at 21 20 hrs. bleahs. so, we decided to watch confessions of a shopaholic. i would reckon you girls to watch it. i had a good laugh, she had a good laugh, we both had a good laugh. besides, the guy is superr hot! okay, maybe not, but he's good-looking.

this is just an add-on. something extra. you can skip this part cause it's so random. we have a new guy in the house yeah! during the preview, i saw my own Taufik Timberlake. he's in replug. no more farhan shah. know why i call him Taufik Timberlake? cause his features are very much like Taufik Batisah and i heard him sing Gone by Justin Timberlake. and he sounds so close to Justin lo! and and! guess what, after the movie, we saw him again! at cwp. excited siak aku. ok da. bye.

ouh, ILY girls! xoxo.

2009-03-05T00:45:00.005+08:00

im updating people! hehehe.

suker eh. nie part aku tgh semangat dua minit. tgk jer lg dua tiga hari. confirm plus chop hiatus lagi.

ok. so, i'll update what has been gg on for the past few days? stocktake on last thursday, finished at 12 midnight, closing on friday/saturday ended at 11 pm. and on sunday, had to wakeup at 5 am in the morning. best kan? it wasnt fun after all after iraa and ii were super late. we had to be in school by 7.30 am but we ended up waking at that time instead. i alr set the alarm clock at 5 but i snooze until 5.30 am. i was super confirdent that iraa would call me soon so i close my eyes. da bangun aper, stkt tutup mate jer. kan? please, laugh. even i myself laugh while staring into space in the toilet after a moment of shock. because kann.. the pass is with me! imagine how kak ain is gg to get the makeup without the pass? luckily the DK girls have. ya, anw, i hafto wake up early pun because of them. and idk why i volunteered to help. why ehh iraa? hmm. so everything ended close to eleven. we did not follow them to bishan cc because.. we are not into DK as much as tarian? so we head to town and spend the afternoon there. we were caught in the rain for quite a loong time before moving on to lot 1. then iraa went home and i met the family at tehtarika nd i dragged them to cwp to subscribe a new line. and ladies, i have a new number. nvm, i shall sms you girls once it have been activated alright?

and what did i do on monday. hmm. went to school. but got no dance. cikgu paitao ehh iraa? haha. had brunch in school with kak ain then she dropped us off at woodlands mrt cause she was driving on that day. then accompanied iraa till irfan came and i went off to rebond my hair. hahahaa! excited kann! ive been wanting this for soo long. guess what, the first person to see my hair was, hanif sia! yes iraa/raudaaah, our very own hanif. keluar kedai, bukak pintu terus die kat depan mate sey. then went off to meet adam. but, as usual, he was late. so he told me to go to syilaa's crib first. pfft. da luh tu, hujan. mcm nk nangis lo! rambut baru rebond da kne hujan. walaupun ade shelter. kne jugak dari tepi. then naik turun bus tk kire? *sob sob*

then in the night, syilaa slept over at my house. konon nye nk share stories taapii.. lol. tkpeluh, there's always some other time. kalau aku off the next day mesti best kan. and too bad you had to go off in the morning to accompany yan mok to buy his uniform? ite clementi retail tgh memanggil dia. hahahhaha! hmm. so that's about it. wehk!(syilaa) dade wedding game? nk tgk! okluh. i nk tdo. imy you girls. xoxo.

2009-02-20T00:06:00.003+08:00

since it has been quite some time i had a proper update. i shall kays? simply because im in the mood to? hahaha! *slaps forehead* its gg to be a boring one though. firstly cause all these while im busy with well, indeed im on holidays but i still hafto attend school on a weekly basis for dance. and also additional workshops by the malay cultural group as well as my very own course. secondly cause no pictures cause i feel im very chubby nowadays. eeks! that freaks me out. on a ligther note, i swear im super excited to start year two on the twentieth of april(put aside my GPA and oh, its gg to be out soon! shit.) because it started off preety well. we had fun during the makeup && grooming workshop. makeup was by the body shop team. and i was like WOW when i saw infront of me soo many colours of eyeshadows, different types of mascaras, blushers, aiya basically every girl's must-haves luh. impressive kann. speaking about my GPA, i wonder if i get higher or lower than first sem. i swear im gonna lock myself up in the room and cry like there's no tmr if its lower. ok, aku bedek sebab aku kene keluar pergi kerje. no work, no money. understand people. other than that, i had to go for a heritage trail tgt with other mcg members to Taman Warisan Melayu. sumpah i had no intentions to tag along and sumpah it was very the secondary school excursion trip. other than that it was dance and work. i swear im super workaholic for february especially. boring kan hidup aku. hoping for better days ahead. hmm. on a random note, i miss miss miss my nieces so much. cause i havent seen or talked to them for quite some time. sigh. ouh they cut their hair! nak tgk??

psst, syilaa, rambut kaisah da mcm rambut you. hahaha! hmm, obviously in the picture you dont really get to see any difference to inarah's hair but its much shorter. you know why. because now she very the mentel. orang ikatkan rambut die nak bukak. and she'll go, you see, my hair soo nice. dgn actions eh. she'll start swaying her hair. omg, this 3 year old kid. even so, you're still my little princess.

2009-02-04T22:44:00.002+08:00

Tagged by Iraa.

Here goes:

1. The person who tagged you: Iraa.

2. Your relationship with him/her: Dancemate, girlfriend.

3. Your 5 impressions of him/her: Sweet, pretty, caring, cute, kaki joget.

4. The most memorable thing he/she has said to you: idk eh?

5. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she have to improve on: How can that be possible?

6. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will: That never cross my mind.

7. What is it that you want to tell him/her now: I miss you!

8. Your overall impression of him/her: Sweet girl.

9. How do you think people around you will feel about you: Ask them.

10. The character you love bout yourself is: Perempuan melayu terakhir? oh tidak. LOL

11. The character you hate bout yourself is: I'd rather keep quiet rather than talked about things. which can be both good and bad.

12. The most ideal person you want to be: Siti Nurhaliza! (i'm sure syilaa will have the same answer as me, right?)

13. For people who cares and likes you, say something to them: XOXO!!!!

14. Pass this quiz to 10 people to know how they feel bout you:
(1)Syilaa
(2)Iraa
(3)Raudaaah
(4)Wan Kukuhead
(5)Azuin
(6)Norsha
(7)Hajar
(8)Fatin
(9)Yvonne
(10)Jeremy

15. Who is no.6 with: Hady.

16. Is no.9 male or female: Female. Duh!

17. If No.7 & 1 get together, will it be a good thing: Nope. Because they are both attached. :))

18. What is No.2 studying about: New media ehk iraa?

19. When was the last time you chat with No.3 : SMS counted tk? Kalau sms, Friday, 30 January 09. ifnot, Thursday, 22 January 09. omg! that's long! imy babe!

20. What kind of music does No.8 likes: I seriously have no idea.

21. Does No.10 have siblings? No.3? : Yeah.

22. Will you woo No.3: Hell no!

23. What about NO.7: NO.

24. Is No.4 single: Yes kan wan? if no, i chop your head off for not telling me! lol

25. What is the surname of No.5: Jumaat.

26. What is the hobby of No.1: Spending time with her favourite boy(s). well, for now maybe her new hair? LOL

27. Does No.5 & no. 9 get along well: I dont think they know each other.

28. Where is No.2 studying at: RP, STA. :)

29. Talk something anout No.1 : My confidante.

30. Have you tried developing feelings for No.8: Of course, NO.

31. Where does No.9 stays: Hougang i think.

32. Are No.1 and 5 bestfriends: They do know about each other existence i guess.

33. Does No.1 have pets: Nope.

34. Is No.7 the sexiest person on earth: She'll kill me if i said yes! hahaha

35. What is No.1 doing now: Chatting with me.

Okay, im done.

2009-01-26T23:48:00.005+08:00

updated due to overwhelming feedbacks. hahahaha. macam paham.

okay, so i was busy with work during the weekends.

woke up at 1pm today. got ready and guess what time i went out. 2.30pm.

thanks to brother in law, i took my time to doll up lo. tsk.

i spent almost an hour in the bathroom. and the rest of the time in my room.

as planned, went to hortpark woth the family. but before that, we went to have light lunch at west coast hawker centre. we had rojak mama. light enough? LOL.

after hortpark, we wandered around (by car) and soon i saw myself around suntec city, singapore flyer, esplanade. then brother in law finally decided to stop at east coast park. dalam hati aku was like, rajin nah nari die. mood cny agaknyer. hahahha. that wasnt the end. know where we went after that, riverside point. obviously, clarke quay sia! betul tk aku cakap. idk what got into him lo today. tsk.

okay, i gtg now. my battery is dying on me.

will update in a few days time. i hope.

happy waiting! LOL.

but before i go, lemme share something with you guys.

burung merpati terbang tinggi,

hinggap mai di pohon meranti,

aidiladha korban biri-biri,

chinese new year jangan pandai-pandai korban babi.

hehe. wth, tapi cute kann.

2009-01-19T10:57:00.002+08:00

im back!
okay, tk perlu ehh.
omg? im exhausted, shagged, whatever you name it.
sometimes i wonder how am i supposed to carry on like this.
school. dance aft school on mondays, tuesdays and thursdays. work on fridays, saturdays and sundays.
but i got no choice, right?
i hafto work. even if i dont want to.
ive been thinking of privatising my blog.
because its ironic when i dont get to say everything here. hmm.

2009-01-16T10:35:00.001+08:00

bye people. see you next week. i'll be working today. and tomorrow. and the day after tomorrow. bleahs. and now im shagged already. pfft.

2009-01-14T13:09:00.002+08:00

O-M-G.
im craving for DURIANS now.
durians?? wth kan?
andd i only want the ones in geylang.
now, lets see how i'm gg to get them.
brother in law? hehehe.

2009-01-13T10:33:00.006+08:00

so yesterday after school was mcg handover ceremony. congrats to the new batch. especially to kak ain who is now our tarian head, go kak ain! im proud of you! heh. to my favourite grl, nur hazirah sazalee! congrats sweetheart! dont worry, you'll do fine. you know im always here right? ily. and to roohee shaheena who is now mcg vice president, congrats sweets! i just love her name luh. haha. big hug! nonetheless, to the year threes, especially kak jan n kak bed, im gonna miss you!!!

congrats everyone! =)

the dancing people.

favourite grrls! traffic light ehk kiter? LOL.

fr left:roohee, syikin, iraa, raudah, shifaya

i miss you so much!

it all ended ard 7.30pm. afterwhich roohee, iraa, raudaaah and i went to went soccer. syikin? soccer? sound so wrong. hahaha! we didnt have any plans and the night is still young therefore the grrls and myself accompanied roohee to watch her friend play. but we dont even know who is her friend lo. tsk. the match was between rp and np. and the score was 5-2.

we went off ard nine. and this girl who have weird cravings nk mkn goreng pisang. lastweek was ban mien. so while walking to cwp, i sms-ed kakak to ask whether they went to tehtarik alr or not. and luckily, they were there, eating. so i took 187 with iraa and dropped opp marsiling mrt.

its been a while since i dropped by tehtarik. i kinda miss the place actually. hahaha! while we were there, met the brother and sister in law. they just came back from dance class. oh brother, semangatnyer badan you! LOL.

2009-01-12T11:30:00.003+08:00

my weekends was boring i guess? im so dedicated to school and work that i actually realised i spent lesser time at home these days. i miss the grrls. as in the little ones at home. when i saw inarah yesterday, she said, "i miss you, auntie." aww. touching kann.

look at her. how much have she grown. believe me, now she's fatter. but she's still our baby unless there's a new one coming up. hehehe. oh tak eh kak? hint hint. haha!

i find this post so meaningless because there's ntg exciting that have happened so far.

rightttt. haha. im currently in class. and its a monday. fcuking monday blues. but class is alright. thank god.

2009-01-09T09:41:00.001+08:00

i feel like eating ban mien.
ok, aku sungguh random.

2009-01-06T13:08:00.001+08:00

Skin changed as requested by syilaa malik. But this may be a temporary one. Cause im in school and i have yet to do my powerpoint slides. This entry may have answers as to why i have been away for nearly a month? Oh well. Nothing actually. It is just that i have been busy with work which i started on the 20th of last month. And yes, dance practices too. And these few days will be very hectic for me cause we’ll be performing on the 7th for RP open house. Which is tomorrow. Haha. My 2009 has been great even though i stayed at home during New Year ’s Eve when everyone’s out there partying or enjoying themselves. Ouh yes, i mentioned the word great. Surely you or especially my gfs will be very excited about this. Haha. No eh, its not what you think uh people. I am not expecting for anything but just hope things remained or gets better. I don’t want it to be a wishful thinking on my part. Ok, duh, no need to elaborate further. Haha. Actually i wanted to say that i miss my gfs. But, the thing is, i already meet them. I met syilaa the day before school reopen and iraa and raudaaah yesterday! Seeing you people brightens up my day. I sayang korang. Ok, im done. Malas nk type panjang2. Ppt belum buat lg oi. Haha.

2008-12-14T22:01:00.001+08:00

temporarily on hiatus.

don't worry, i am still alive.

2008-12-09T11:47:00.036+08:00

I am one happy girl today. For the fact that it is my birthday. I feel so special. Okay, tk perlu. Other than smiling, laughing the whole day and getting wishes from the loved ones, i was happy that Allah answered my prayers. I was supposed to have dance practice today after school but it was cancelled! I didn’t expect it to be cancelled ofcourse. And the next moment, winnie sms-ed me. I found myself a job! Although it’s back to the old place, but the fact that i’ll have money coming in. Well, although it’s not much, I can help mum and dad, don’t have to worry about my expenses anddddd shopping! Yey-ness!

I had my advanced birthday from the clans on Saturday. Like always, the family celebrated my birthday with a cake. Strawberry chocolate! Siti Nurhaliza’s favourite! Okay, tk perlu. I got my mango and f21 voucher from sister and brother in law. thank you!!!!! :D and thanks to mama and ayah, although we all know how it has been for us. Adik sayang kamu semua! Ouh, and to kaisah inarah, auntie love you sweethearts!

On the day itself, syilaa early early booked me already ( direct translation ). Haha. And since there’s no dance, i met her earlier! So, it was at eight. Somewhere near her place. I was delighted by the surprise she and asyraf had in mind although syilaa was the mastermind, thank you asyraf for taking time off on my birthday. For the fact that you were from school. See, aku tk luper kau okay! The girl knew i like cheesecake and she got me blueberry cheesecake. Sedap nak mampos! I finished it up. I nak lagi nextyear! Hehehe. Afterwhich asyraf had to go and us grrls went back to syilaa’s crib to watch The Little Nyonya. In case you people don’t know, we fancy watching Chinese local drama.

Love, although it’s not much as you said, i love it. I don’t need you to buy me expensive gifts or whatnots, but the fact that you remembered, you were there to celebrate it with me and the surprise, i love it very much. I’m looking forward for more celebrations with you in the upcoming years!

a big thank-you to these people:

the family

sms:

tarmimie

naresh

kakak

syilaa

shida

iraa

sha

asyraf

E36M mates:

zach

andrew

amel

jeck chee

bing long

kelly

jeremy

suhadak

aidil

guo hao

chad

msn:

hasiff

shan

azuin

yan

abu

kak azrina

kak jannah

wei ting

hafiz

fs:

hong ti

khair

deena

mir

hayry

suriyah

tags:

farah

ayu

raudaaah

joycelynn

&isa ( met him during break. )

&&wan ( he called me! )

2008-12-07T00:00:00.004+08:00

I deleted the post on second December because..................................... it was so tk perlu. I admit I faced alot of one minute depression, always. But, I soon get over it. Ohwell. Today was fun! Went to town to buy some daily necessities. Hahaha. After which roamed around wisma while waiting for shida to reach. And i got myself two tops. Tsk. So the girl came and we proceed to fareast to fill our stomachs. It was late lunch plus breakfast for me. Haha. And then we went to search for naresh’s very very belated present. His birthday was like last month and i only got him now. Reason being i was busy preparing for MUSE. I thought i would be free but i was wrong. I had another two shows which was SIAPA BABA? and FLAMES. And i only have the time today to finally go out, buy present and meet the clans. Sorry uh. But i am sure you like the present. I hope.

We then rushed off to meet them. Initial plans were to meet at civic garden but it rained. We decided to meet at level 6, cwp. The day got better when they surprised me with homemade brownie by shida. Ty love! And she suddenly came up with this random thought of having a chill chillin’ session over at Admiralty Park. And everybody was like, ok, let’s! Haha. Guesss whatt. Plans changed. Instead of Admiralty Park, we went to stage, rp. To sum it all up, we had lotsa fun!

We are looking forward to the holidays because we got lotsa plans. Sheesha-ing, marina barrage, Henderson wave, escape theme park and hae sushi. Let’s make it happen people.

i decided not to upload pictures. cause i not preety. heh.

2008-12-05T16:10:00.003+08:00

tagged by kak az.

RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

RULE #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continuing this game by sending it to other people.

1. Do you have secrets?
- who doesn't?
2. Would you fall in love with a boy/girl older than you?
- boy yes. haha. girl no, never.
3. How long do you intend to wait for someone u really love?
- as long as it takes. but i won't force someone to be with me. in any case, move on. it'll get better in time.
4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
-go for a tour with the family, save and donate.
5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
- "...i'm lucky i'm in love with my bestfriend..." haha. no.
6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
-being loved by someone. no use loving someone if he don't feel the same way right?
7.How do you define love?
- idk. when i hv a boyfriend then i tell you uh! hehe
8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
- move on. i should be happy for him.
9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
- no? hahaha.
10. What makes you sad?
- being betrayed, being made use of etc.
11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
- married.
12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
- family and friends.
13. What is being regarded as the most important thing in your life?
- family and friends.
14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
- single and rich please.
15. What is your favourite colour?
- combination of vibrant colours really makes me go, WOW.
16. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, and both of them do the same, who would you pick?
- neither.
17. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
- forgive yes. forget no.
18. What do you want to tell the someone you like?
- dont tell you. it's suppose to be between me and him only whatt. :P
19. If there is a choice between lover and friends,which will you choose?
- friends.
20. Do you believe that there's "True Love"?
- in fairytales maybe?

i shall not tag anyone. :D

2008-12-01T11:56:00.001+08:00

yeyy.
da december.
ok, random.
haha.

2008-11-28T15:00:00.006+08:00

FLAME AWARDS ( 27 nov )

SIAPA BABA? ( 21 - 22 nov )

MUSE ( 12 nov ) tkde gambar.

pasal i tk cantik.

and nur syusila abdul malik tknk send gambar.

bluek!

2008-11-28T01:55:00.004+08:00

HAPPY belated EIGHTEENTH BIRTHDAY

RIDHWAN ROSLAN!!!

FRIENDS FOREVER.

aku miss kau sangat-sangat.

2008-11-24T10:54:00.003+08:00

tagged by kak ain. thanks eh kak ain! saayang you! haha.

The rules & regulations: 1) Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself 2) People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 10 weird things/habits/little know facts as well as state this rule clearly 3) At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged & list their names 4) No tag back.

10 weird things/habits/little known facts about myself.

1)i think im fat. the last time i took was 50.5. i want a 49 please! atleast. :D

2)i behave like a kid when im at home (sometimes!)

3)idk how to cook

4)i still sleep with mama when ayah's working :)

5)i became an auntie/bibik at a very young age

6)im lazy to do housework

7)i used to have a very very bad temper. now not i guess? ask my close ones.

8)when i dont eat, i dont. but when i do, i eat like there's no tomorrow!

9)i can not sleep when im online at night eventhough im tired

10)i can sleep for more than twelve hours!

i'll cancel out rule no#3 cause i know most wont do it anw. right? hehe. cause even i myself was contemplating on whether to do or not to do when i saw my name. tsk tsk.

2008-11-23T01:07:00.006+08:00

finally. i am free!!! free from rigorous training, free from doing runs, free from stage makeup. i can go home straight after school. can finally go to the movies. which i havent been to for ages! can finally go shopping. can finally meet up with my loves. so sad know. each time i call them as soon as i am done, they're already at home. when they call or sms-ed usually i'll be busy that i got no time to even look at my phone until the end of the session. sedih kann! and can finally update my blog. well apparently not. cause i'll be performing next week. again. sometimes it just freaks me out and i feel like giving up everything and go. but i just love the feeling after every show, when a mixture of feelings runs through. happy, relieve, high while looking at the others who went through this together with me. i love everyone of you luh. xoxo. so after MUSE, was SIAPA BABA? the thang which kept me busy throughout the week. i was involved in the opening only but still have to wait till curtain wall. it was a two day event. friday (8pm) and saturday (3&8pm). friday didnt start out preety well cause jeremy spilled a cup of teh-o on my jeans. and its faded blue sumore! it stained the whole of my right leg. i was like a bit disturbed cause was worried if the stain wont be able to come offf if wait until i get home which is only in the night. so i spent my break in the toilet trying to get rid of the stain. i was like so malu lo. i looked like a maid already in the toilet, washing clothes. but who cares. i took approximately ard two hours in there but i still cannot wear it cause its wet no matter how patient i was standing in front of the hand dryer. lesson learnt : classmates, dont put your drink beside me! especially jeremy. haha. but alhamdullilah. everything went well during the show. there were complimentary tickets so i told kakak to come together with her kids and my parents since ayah's not working. but they went home right after i performed. she said that she fell asleep watching the musical. hahaha! you are very funny kakak. on saturday night, yum gave each of us toblerone! syikin excited kann dapat chocolate. hahaha! i shant upload the photos first. cause i only have my pictures alone in my phone. shall wait for qayyum to send me the pictures. yum...! i nk gambar! hee.

2008-11-21T10:51:00.001+08:00

dear readers,
sorry for MIA-ing.
i'll update soon yeah.
been busy pretty lately.

i am dying.

2008-11-12T23:59:00.006+08:00

i dont know where to begin. the night was great. to sum it all up in one word, it was awesome! all the hardwork have been paid off. everyone did a good job. we kill the audience. hehe. to asri, kak bed, kak jan, kak shikin, kak ain, kak ris, kak fad, kak az, kak shif, kak hus, kak naq, roohee, hanif, isa, qayyum, rainee, aisyah, marina and my favorite grrls, iraa and raudaaah.. I LOVE Y'ALL. not forgetting arifah! i tk luper you okay. hehe. thanks for making it happen. sayang korang. special thanks to cikgu for your guidance and having trust in us.

yest night was reflections for RP dance igs. it was raining the whole day. but the show must still go on. i left class at four and hurriedly made my way to our dressing room. got people to help me with the make up as you all know, im almost blind without my contacts. haha. without realising, it was almost time for briefing. after which, did touch ups and ard 18 30 hours went to get our dinner at the loading area. ate a little. because my eyes starts tearing as soon as i put on my lenses. of all days. pfft. soon, heard the bell rang. that was when the crowd starts to come in. the night started with indian dance representing indian cultural group ( icg ) , social dance, modern dance, fifteen minutes interval and up next was us, representing the malay cultural group ( mcg ) and finally, hip hop ig. i must say we all did a great job because we've practiced so hard just for this day. :)

thanks to my "fans" for coming. haha. kasi i face sikit okayy. bukan selalu i dapat one minute perasan. hehehe. okok. to mama, kakak, kaisah, inarah, syila, asyraf, yan, shida, farhan, naresh and iqul too.. thank you so much for coming. your presence meant a lot to me.

ouh and another piece of good news, we've been invited to perform at NUS next year! :))

i enjoyed the night.
no pictures, yet.

2008-11-08T02:31:00.005+08:00

I would like to wish...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NARESH S/O SANMUGAVELU!!!

FINALLY LEGAL EIGHTEEN! LOLS.

2008-11-07T16:23:00.005+08:00

class ended early today. four pm.

BUT! i cant make my way home. why? because i'll be having stage blocking later. and its from 8 - 9pm. thought could get it over and done with asap. but no. pfft. its a friday okay. and while waiting, might as well i pen down some things herre. i realised my last post was like last month? hahaha!

im so lazy to update because i think its sucha bore reading the same thing. it has always been about school andd dance practices. i guessed you readers would find it a bore too.

so, dance on tuesday was cancelled. due to idk what. haha. i was contented enough though for the fact that it was cancelled. went to wisma. wanted to get belt only. but, this girl, very the mentel went into other shops and went crazy looking at tops. hahaha. in the end, i bought 4 tops. tsk tsk.

ok, im done. malas nk type. i shall listen to music and rest my fingers for now. hehe.

2008-10-31T01:50:00.002+08:00

i think i should have some mee soto at teh tarik.
( before school starts. )
but when ehh.
hmm. saturday maybe?
ok. this entry is so tk perlu.
its so random.